It was almost 60 years ago that I met Duffy. That’s not his real name of course. It was something like Maynard or Mandrake or equally uncommon. We were in undergraduate studies together at Glendon Hall on Bayview Avenue in Toronto. We were among the first students at Glendon. In those days it was still an adjunct of the University of Toronto. Later it became part of the newly developed York University on the outskirts of the other side of the city. What initially made Glendon singular was its bent for bilingualism and political science. It turned out – when we subsequently had time to examine more than the sprawling gardens and canyon fields surrounding the former Wood Estate – that by design the university was geared to breed Canada’s diplomatic crowd. The proof of that speculation is that the first Principal of the college was Escott Reid who personally attended in 1966 upon our Upper Six graduating class at St. Andrew’s College in Aurora to promote the college.
Arrogant, given to excess, and a naïve liberal idealist. This is how history has often remembered the late Canadian diplomat Escott Reid.
The Glendon campus became a bilingual liberal arts college led by Escott Reid, who envisaged it as a national institution to educate Canada’s future leaders, a vision shared by Prime Minister Lester Pearson, who formally opened Glendon College in 1966.
Reid succeeded to convince a number of us to apply for admission (instead of sheepishly going to Trinity College at the University of Toronto as would have been customary). We later unearthed as well that we were but a batch of prep school students (both men and women) from other private schools in the area. At first the private school students isolated themselves and sat together in the dining room hall over breakfast, lunch and dinner at the long heavy wooden tables. Eventually segregations developed.
Duffy St. James was one of those private school students whom I met at Glendon. He had attended “The Grove” or what is also known as Lakefield College School. The school later acquired a degree of celebrity because in 1977 Prince Andrew attended the school for a term as an exchange student from Gordonstoun School, Scotland. Until then however, among what was then known as the “Little Big Four” (Upper Canada College, Bishop Ridley College, Trinity College School and St. Andrew’s College), Lakefield was a remote country school on the periphery of involvement. His school and ours had seldom collaborated for football games or cricket matches. As a result my acquaintance with Duffy did not arise in particular because of his private school credential. Instead he lived in the same House as I on campus at Glendon, just down the hallway. We shared a common room of shower stalls and washrooms. What triggered our acquaintance was therefore nothing other than a friendly passing hello.
In spite of our tenuous relationship – not to mention his burning interest in afternoon card games for which I had no interest at all – we developed a personal relationship. It interested me for example that he was somewhat of a renegade. I cannot now recall what he said to identify his early high school dilemmas, but he told me he had been sent to Lakefield College as an attempt by his parents to improve or correct him of his divergent tendencies (whatever they may have been). I couldn’t imagine Duffy being radical – he was always seemingly calm and intellectual – but something had been amiss. As for his intellect, one incident especially impressed me. I recall him telling me how he got his first summer job upon graduation from prep school. He had applied to work on a bus with a tour operator. When asked at his interview, “What’s the first thing you would do if someone dies on the bus?”, he replied, “Open a window!” He got the job. And I think it paid well, as much as $2 per hour which, believe me, at the time was astronomic for a student summer job.
Duffy was the only student from Lakefield. Soon he became part of the larger private school clique on campus. That first Christmas he joined me and several other confederates (boys and girls) at a Caribbean resort for a mid-winter holiday. There his popularity excelled. He drank alcohol; he smoked cigarettes; and he knew how to joke and laugh. He was popular with the ladies. He was handsome – tall, well built and had a head of thick dark brown curly hair.
In spite of all this, Duffy died young. He committed suicide. I read about it years afterwards in the Globe and Mail newspaper.
I have since spent years pondering the unfortunate consequence of Duffy St. James. Because he was such an undemonstrative person, never one to brag about his accomplishments or benefits, and because he was always such a lonely person (I never knew him to have any alliance beyond his afternoon card mates), there is little indicia by which to assess him. It speaks to the inclination of youth to dwell only upon the moment that I haven’t any useful detail of his past. Nor did he ever speak at length about his past. He had simply materialized from another world – and then as quickly and as insignificantly departed.
Notably Duffy had been the subject of interest of one girl at Glendon. She, I afterwards learned, was interested in just about any boy who had been at private school. There were, as I mentioned previously, social events which inspired the private school crowd, among them the annual Highland Cadet balls at school. This girl – Mart was her name – proved herself to be “socially conscious”. She was not a snob – never did she proclaim anything to advance her public esteem – but she was clearly intent upon grooming herself for membership in a select group. Mart was, I thought at first, interested in Duffy because of his appearance but I was mistaken. Mart was by current standards attractive (along the “Twiggy” lines of sylphlike expression). She and Duffy would have made a good pair from that point of view; but they never graduated to anything beyond chat at table in the dining hall. Mart eventually transferred her insinuation tasks to other avenues (and I heard about her years later that she developed quite the history for doing so, sometimes upon the most exotic levels of society across Canada).
As you may well have already surmised, my connection with Duffy evaporated. In fact I lost touch with him primarily because of a letter he wrote me while I attended law school at Dalhousie University in Halifax, Nova Scotia. That was in 1970 immediately after having graduated from Glendon Hall. My flight to Nova Scotia was initially intended to afford me knowledge of life beyond the bounds of my past in the Toronto area; and, to connect me with my father’s roots in the maritime provinces. But when I reached Halifax I had trouble making an immediate adjustment. I wrote to Duffy to tell him so. His only reply was, “There ain’t no ship to take you away from yourself; you travel the suburbs of your own mind.” It stung, not especially because it were true, but because Duffy hadn’t to my thinking shown any ambition for sympathy. I did however respect his decision – so much so that we never communicated again. The adage by contrast has stuck. And while I thank Duffy for the intelligence I rather wish we had had a less abrupt end. I have since enquired of others whom I knew at Glendon about their knowledge of Duffy St. James, but to no avail. Even my review of his obituary discloses nothing material about him other than his date of death and his immediate blood family. There is no mention of a friend, partner or spouse.
There are so many possible lessons to derive from this brief account. After I had read his obituary, I had attempted to contact one of his siblings but nothing came of that either. There is naturally no answer to his suicide. Only Socrates has ever come close to convincing me of its propriety.
Socrates
(469–399 BC), ancient Athenian philosopher. As represented in the writings of his disciple Plato, he engaged in dialogue with others in an attempt to reach understanding and ethical concepts by exposing and dispelling error (the Socratic method). Charged with introducing strange gods and corrupting the young, Socrates was sentenced to death and died by drinking hemlock.