It has been an ambivalent day, an indecisive and muddled day. The uncertainty reflected my awakening hesitation and withdrawal, an early morning reluctance tainted by a Cimmerian mist. I had no intention, purpose or desire. Occasionally today there was a reviving trace of blue sky in the remote upper atmosphere. As regularly the dome was overtaken by dark grey clouds and sudden distant sheets of rain which in turn precipitously overwhelmed the immediate landscape, dissolving everything in its torrential downpour before it as hastily vanished from sight. An intense brightness followed, invigorating the clarity and coolness.

I plotted my way through the periodic cloudbursts, formulating my idle thoughts. It is impossible in such circumstances to dictate a regularity without the thread of logic. But there was no major or minor premise, nor as a result any conclusion. Instead I absorbed only my inclinations. Life’s natural beauty is both inestimable and inarguable. The flourishing corn stalks responded to the gusts of wind with the wavering pattern of a Persian rug. A verdancy, enhanced by the rainfall, clung like an emerald upon the fields to the faded horizon.

Removed as I am from necessity, bound instead by my own prescriptions and imperatives, the complications of living manifest themselves in curious ways. It is, to be frank, novel territory. Without deprivation, attachment is purely a product of preference. It is vitality which speaks to measurable terms, identity requiring assessment and moderate deliberation. In a revolving manner of consideration, I contemplated the significance of an endless day, of the shadow of sculling boats upon the river, the gratification of repeated endeavour, the purity of the view at hand.

Determining my future is confounded by the ensuing patterns of mindfulness. Like the upturned leaves of the trees jostled in the wind, objectives change as appearances alter.

In clinical psychology and well-being, mindfulness is the cognitive skill of, or state reached by, intentionally and on purpose maintaining moment-by-moment awareness of bodily sensations, feelings, thoughts, and immediate surroundings with a non-judgmental or equanimous attitude, counteracting [the mind’s] automatic rumination and cognitive elaborations on one’s experiences.