Repetition, summarizing, making an inventory, recapitulating, freezing the moment, itemizing the plans, re-living the accomplishments, going over and over the same things again and again, that’s the business of obsession. It requires little brainpower to acknowledge that the experience does nothing to alter the facts, neither the past nor the future. It is a hopeless attempt to arrest the present. And yet I persist. I liken it to a dampening of my ritual haste, a government of my unstoppable prosecution of things, a tempering of the flurry of living. While it may afford a temporary hiatus it isn’t long before I regain my traction in the circular behaviour. Certainly some contemplation is never out of place, a purposeful assessment of what has been done and what is to be done. But in the end it is an exercise fraught with the peril of trying to stop the world from spinning to get off the whirling ride.
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