As narrow and repetitive as one’s focus might have dwindled during this frightful pandemic – which for me means an agenda confined to eating, grocery and pharmacy shopping, cycling, photography, writing, driving my car and sleeping – there remains within this limited parameter the occasion for unanticipated exhilaration. Today for example I ventured northward to Neat Café in Burnstown, County of Renfrew where I chanced to meet and chat with the affable proprietors, Mark Enright and Bill Virgin.
To my horror I have unwittingly discovered that the term Peacock Alley applies to luxury linens, a television entertainment corporation, a black-and-white silent film, a black-and-white sound film, a restaurant, a jazz club, a room at the Windsor Arms Hotel in Montréal and naturally the walkway in the Waldorf Astoria Hotel in Upper Manhattan at 301 Park Avenue, New York City. Reputedly it was along this walkway that patrons of the Waldorf Astoria Hotel would perambulate with the shameful ambition to show themselves off. I prefer to characterize the vulgarity as the more innocent expression of native curiosity affecting those of any class of society.
A lifetime of unflinching dedication to routine has perhaps left me mildly toxic. Certainly I am unhesitatingly ambitious for buoyancy. The virulence is my uncompromising intolerance of a shift from originality. This may echo an obsession with currency and the incapacity for change. It is rather a reluctance to dilute nature’s subtle ingredients. Any attempt to unravel the curiosities of nature requires at the outset a delicacy of analysis. By contrast it is every child’s instinctive inclination to take apart the petals of a flower – not just for the romantic preoccupation acquainted with “Loves me, loves me not” but for the hopeless task of revealing the secret. The indiscretion is equivalent to the ruinous habit of pulling the wings off flies or combusting unsuspecting ants on a hot summer day with a magnifying glass. It evokes nothing of profit or utility; and most certainly fails as an artistic endeavour.
I’ve heard it said that if you get lost in the woods you end going in circles by trying to get out. This gyration sufficiently describes the outings I routinely make in the afternoon to divert myself – though the purpose is more adequately achieved. By design I never want to get too far from home. I know for example the coffee shop at Neat Café in Burnstown (under the capable stewardship of Mark Enright) is conveniently within my allotted time frame (anywhere from 2 – 4 hours depending upon how much time we seek to absorb). If by contrast we venture southward towards the St. Lawrence River (Brockville, Ivy Lea Club, Gananoque) the duration of the exploration is protracted.
Though I don’t actively search for a reason not to exercise, I confess that the sudden gusty commotion of a snow squall dampens my athletic enthusiasm for bicycling. Happily the cycling ritual is so hardened that the re-appearance of blue skies and sunshine as quickly restores my erstwhile ambition. The predominant feature is that a breath of fresh air from moderate out-of-doors exercise always succeeds to enliven me. Indeed without the prerequisite my day is assured to be muffled. The beneficence of exercise is a product not only of routine behaviour but also of manifest physical improvement – though I am willing to acknowledge the lurid attraction of habit!
Today is the 8th day of May, 2020. It snowed last night. Just a skiff. It lingers on the lawns but melts on the pavement. We’ve temporarily abandoned our cycling ambition – at least until the roadways are dry. Meanwhile the novelty of the snow succeeds to insulate us indoors with impunity and a degree of legitimacy. The manifest restraint thankfully inspires the consumption of cranberry/pumpkin seed bread lathered in gobs of Becel butter! Naturally I shall have the decency to precede the indulgence with a slimming plate of sliced apple, a bunch of red grapes and a modest wedge of subtle Brie cheese. My customary strong, black coffee also awaits. And did I mention the steel cut oats? It’s a wonder I so agreeably maintain my racehorse figure!
With everything on one’s diary being cancelled, delayed or put-off interminably, it is impossible to escape the similarity of one’s current affairs to any of the other traditional and more familiar alterations of life – prolonged illness or death, being fired or retirement, moving or breaking up. The one theme which insinuates each of these often catastrophic events is the overwhelming reduction to incapacity – and change. Once one has evaporated the elemental features of health, employment, social alliance or life as we know it, what remains is unsettling and uncharted territory. The possibility of impenetrability also exists – a modern plague which we are reluctant to verbalize.
We’ve just about reached the pinnacle of endurance of this tarsome pandemic business. I fear we’re on the cusp of either a major alteration or the sequel of a subduing reality. With curious regularity I am hearing the same story from friends all over the world; namely, “Enough, already!” Whatever spunk we may have had initially is on the verge of expiry. Granted a thread of the initial stamina continues to prevail – but tolerance is rapidly waning. The challenge is not our doggedness; rather the utter boredom of it all! As an abstract generality, la condition humaine has expanded far beyond the conflict of socialist insurrectionists. The revolutionaries most certainly wouldn’t be permitted to rally publicly! The greater looming threat is a combination of complete inutility and lack of imagination for anything compensatory in the meantime.
The Jurassic geological period spanned 56 million years from the end of the Triassic Period 201.3 million years ago to the beginning of the Cretaceous Period 145 million years ago. The Jurassic constitutes the middle period of the Mesozoic Era known as the Age of Reptiles. Pointedly the start of the period was maked by the major Triassic-Jurassic extinction event.
Our instinctive unanimity (that native harmony that presumably propels us) reveals itself in the oddest manner of expression! Of one accord this morning we cut short our bicycle ride. It was cloudy, chilly and we hadn’t the energy to surmount the obstacles. His Lordship retired to his study to observe self-isolation. Not surprisingly I contented myself instead to go for a long drive into the southern hinterland approaching the St. Lawrence River. There are times like today when even the fulfillment of my obsessions does little to stimulate my gusto. Perhaps that was the advantage of working for a living – namely, that you’re so preoccupied with handling other people’s stuff that by the time you get to your own it is uplifting for that reason alone. I’m guessing. Alternatively maybe today was so unusually free of corruption of any level that it made the purity of what flowed less noticeable. I did however remark with glee that the grass – especially when bordering remnant collections of water in the fields – is getting surprisingly green. The colour resembled a neon verdancy – a glistening emerald.